It has become abundantly clear that this princess thing has played out for me.
For now anyway. It is time to reconnect my goddess child with my goddess mother. It's been a nice ride being waited on, and catered to, but that must come to an end for now. The family is way past ready for me to nurture them.
It isn't fair to my beloved husband to do all of the cooking when I am home all day long. I can put together a meal in the hours upon hours I have without stressing out my healing heart. However, it will take some overwhelming will power to make me feel happy about it; happy I must feel because cooking for one's family means cooking with love. I am a firm believer that the emotional state and intent of the cook is key to making a meal that truly nourishes the mind and body. There is a certain restaurant, in my town, that serves up dishes that look pleasing to the eye, but leave a hollowness in my soul and tummy. There is another place where the woman pours so much of herself into her sandwiches that I feel lifted up after every one.
I am not the gourmet that my husband is, but I can make a tasty dish. My youngest son came home from overseas last summer, and he asked why everything I cooked tasted so good. "It was made with love, honey." That's all. That's everything. I'm not saying the task I have set for myself is an easy one. When my husband took over cooking two years ago, I walked away from the kitchen and never looked back. It was like when school gets out for the summer, and I locked that classroom door for the last time. Within minutes I become Summer Me, Teacher Me isn't even a faded memory. It's time. It's time to take on the task, temporarily. This isn't forever. Winter will come, the barnyard will quiet down, and the clamoring gallery owners will be easier to appease.
May peace and a chance to nurture be yours from, The Goddess of Everything.
2 comments:
In case it helps at all, I want to share a simple idea that took me years to learn. Granted, I live a 1/4 mile from the store, but this is how I do it. In the morning, I decide what we'll have for dinner and make certain that I have those ingredients. Then, about 1 hour before dinnertime, I force myself to make it. Um, force myself with love, of course. Really, most of the time it's fine. I even like it. But, if I don't think about it in the morning, it can be very hard to deal with it later.
I know this is very simple, but, like I said, it took me years to figure it out.
I agree with sister2. This is one of the few tasks I can still do for the family (needless to say we end up eating out a great deal more than we can really afford!). But I do know as I do my monthly shopping (since I live in a Small town in the Oregon Gorge Territory so shop once a month in 'the city' lol) what kinds of meals I need to make.
I balance the meats and veggies (lots fresh for the first week or two and then we go to frozen unless the local stores have a good deal on something in particular.)
I couldn't cook, I don't think, though if I hadn't done the shopping...so often I just grab one of these, one of those and throw it together that I don't know how I manage to get through a month with food still in the freezer. :)
Though I'm not the gourmet that Brent is :) I do cook with love...just like you.
Here's on of my family's favorite "Quick Meals"
Frozen chicken breasts (can be microwaved, barbequed or oven baked depending on the heat.) seasoned with lemon, honey, granulated garlic and onions.
(early in the month a green salad...later on frozen broccoli with cheese)
frozen broccoli with garlic salt and smothered in Tillamook cheddar cheese then microwave it just long enough for the cheese to melt and the broccoli to be warm (I hate it..I like my broccoli without all the protein, but they LOVE it and will even eat seconds!)
Then I take some of those refrigerator biscuits (2 packages because they like them so much!) and put them in a square 8"X8" baking pan all smooshed together and sprinkle garlic salt, poppy seeds and grate either a mozarella or cheddar cheese over the top. Bake for about 10 minutes and you have chewy roll goodness.
Good luck with the cooking,
Sondra
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